friendship can feel exhausting

I had another post semi prepared but its being interrupted in light of a resent drama that has occurred in my life *side-eye*  

One thing about my personality is I am fairly independent and when I feel like someone is trying to "hold me down" or "control" what I do or can I feel like noping the fuck away from that. I also really hate people who guilt trip, it's probably one of my biggest pet peeves/turn off, its childish and being childish is probably my second biggest pet peeve.

SO ON WITH THE STORY

A woman I've been friends with for over a decade has decided that our friendship is on the line apparently because of two events recently, one being the kicker and the other I guess you could say is the icing on the cake so here we go. About a week or so ago I went and saw a movie with my sister because I had a free matinee on my AMC rewards card and it was going to expire that day or week I think but that was my only day to go, so I asked my sister if she wanted to see a movie and we decided the only one we wanted to go see was the Nun so that's what we saw, fast foward a few days later (Saturday) this friend and I are talking about something and she mentions going to a movie with her kids and I say that I went to a movie too and when she finds out she is quite dramatic saying that was one we were supposed to go see together blah blah I promised I'd see it with her (I don't recall promising but, like with a lot of movies we say, "omg we should totally go see that) and I said I was sorry but...I mean I did what I did. They day goes on and she mentions it a few more times in jest and all is fine.

She comes on the next say, all seems is well and she hasn't mentioned the movie or the "betrayal of friendship" and then she see's we all, aside from one person who didn't want any, have Chinese-American food, which was ordered because it was one of the people working that day's last day so a coworker offered to buy her lunch and then asked if any of us wanted to order too and most of of us said yes. She now she's pissed and starts having a melt down, with all this "no one cares about second shit" (she hardly ever works second shift though ?) and "strike three on our friendship" ( I didn't order the Chinese food, nor was it my idea) "guess I'll have to eat shitty cafeteria food because nobody care and I didn't bring food"
FIRST once we realized she was mad we said sorry but they ordered online around 10:30 a.m. online so it'd be ready by our lunch around 12, her shift started at 12:30 so its not like she was there and we just didn't ask, even if we had thought to call or text what if we didn't get through ? Were we supposed to wait ? SECOND it wasn't for her it was for the employee leaving ? 

It's not like we didn't apologize or offer to go pick her up some but some people were also stirring the pot with her, mostly because I don't think they realized she was 100% fucking serious even saying she wanted to change the weekend she was on because no one cared about her...ok.

Towards the end of the night she ended up needing my help for something and while we were solving the problem we were talking semi normally about the situation but then by the time it was time for me to leave she was having another fit about everything.

I feel like she's lashing out about it mostly because the previous weekend her parents and brother went to a family reunion and not only didn't invite her and her family but they didn't even tell them it was being hosted, which is super shitty but...I didn't do that to her. I feel like she's feeling like everyone around her is doing things and not including her, I was just the "icing on the cake" so I'm the one getting the rage from it. I'm not apologizing again and I'm not going to continue to feel bad about either. She has done some really crappy things to me in the years we've known each other and I've never even thought about strikes on friendship thing or anything...shit happens, people make mistakes, as far as I'm concerned its her move from here.

AW 2018

Another year, another AWA.

I had fun, I always do and as usual I regret not cosplaying...even something simple. I just fear people thinking it looks bad but y'know you get to a convention and there are great costumes and not so great ones but everyone seems very confident no matter how they look so I'm actually going to make an effort next year.
What I'm thinking so far is

• Bulma from DragonBall
• Kuroko from Kuroko no Basket
• Botan from Yu Yu Hakusho

A small list but I don't want to overwhelm myself with options.

Anyways, of course I didn't take any pictures of cosplayers even though I saw tons and tons of really neat ones but I just can't bring myself to ask. I know its probably not a big deal for most of them but IT IS TO ME.

I did buy some merch...as per usge but I retained myself and only bought a few of the many many many things I wanted. This year artist ally was before all of the vendors which I thought was a great change because they get exposure first which is wonderful I ended spending the most money on artist which I usually don't because so much other stuff has caught attention before I got there.

I only regret not picking up a couple of the DVD's I had my eye on, I figured I might be able to find them on amazon or somewhere cheaper turn out most of the vendors had them cheaper *eye roll* but I'll keep that in mind for next year.

SO SO SO here's what I got, links above pictures to artist website/page


alexisparade

litte reddo

mamobot

cypritree

zombiebass

These next two things I don't know who the artists are I had business cards for them both but I guess they fell out of my bag or something so if you know who either artist is let me know !

also a little Yuri phone charm 

AND LAST BUT NOT LEAST I FOUND SOMETHING I HAVE BEEN LOOKING FOR FOREVER !!!! A Deku nendroid ヽ(；▽；)ノ
I've been wanting one, and the Bakugo one, for so long but since they are a rare nendroid you can only find them for $300+ and I saw this one and it was the last one they had and the price was...reasonable so I got it !

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I don't know why there is so much space between some of the posts, I tried to fix it in HTML mode to no avail ¯\_(ツ)_/¯