I am going to start on a diet so that I can try to get my life in shape, also my body...it needs to be a different shape. I am feeling really motivated mostly because recently I was re-inspired by a girl who I watch on youtube (@simonandmartina or @eatyourkimchi on youtube) who struggles with health issues and is losing weight because to combat side effects of her chronic condition and is taking steps to incorporate better eating into her life style. I lake motivation when it comes to lots of things in life due to depression and I try to act out when I feel inspired because I feel like I can accomplish thing then.
Part of the reason I wanted to find some motivation is because I'm a terrible eater, not only am I picky but my eating habits are ridiculous. Sometimes I'll eat a ton in a day and other days I'll barely eat at all, like today my food was a pureed fruit bar for lunch and another one for dinner washed down with a redbull (I just never felt hungry today). I also eat a TON of carbs, I LOVE CARBS I LOOOOVE THEM, I have pasta at least 3 times a week and when I'm not eating pasta I'm having rice or potatoes those other days so its a carbapalooza for my body and I consume a ton of sugar; sugary drinks and candies are my thing, like I live for that kind of shit I really do. I also enjoy shitty foods like...no nutritional value and high sodium content is the way to my heart and this a true fact.
I need to be healthier, not only because being healthy is good but I want to better control of myself.
ALSO ya girl needs to lose some weight, not only to be healthy but happy, I'm not going to pretend like it wouldn't make me happier to lose weight and then maintain a trimmer body. I've spent most of my life being overweight or chubby and I was never happy with it, I cannot embrace a body that I am not happy with simple as that.
A LIST
- making meals for work
- trying to fit in at least 30 minutes of physical activity on days I'm not at work
- cutting my carb intake by 30%
I'm starting small (very small) because taking small steps work for me most of the time.
A few years ago I lost a TON of weight (most of it was unhealthy ways but I'll take about that another time) and I did a huge drastic "cut everything out of my diet except vegetables and water" and that total cut of everything I loved and obsessive calorie counting became my downfall. So this time around I want it to be a diet that helps lead a change in life style (gag) so that I can be healthy and continuing enjoying food because I LOVE FOOD.
My next post will be more of a list-y type post with some plans and ideas that I have for trying to make this work.
