FOOD VLOG #1

Starting 4/29

Sunday

• breakfast - nothing 
• lunch - spicy miso ramen noodles (maruchan) around 250 calories I think
• dinner - a pina colada pureed popsicle (solero) and then about 30 minutes later I decided I wanted another one so I got a mango one, about 160 calories each

Monday

I slept most off and on most of the day because I felt awful with allergies and couldn't really breathe or taste so I had some crackers every couple hours

Tuesday

• breakfast - nothing 
• lunch - canned mini raviolis (chef boyardee my actual fucking weakness right here) at 460 calories with a small bag of plain potato chips at 200 calories
• dinner - spicy chicken ramen noodles at 210 calories

wednesday

• breakfast - caramel walnut brownie protein bar (luna) 190 calories and a sugar free redbull  at 5 calories
• lunch - 4 sesame seeds wasa thins at 160 calories, tuna with relish and mayo at 100 calories and 2 spicy pepperjack cheeses (laughing cow) at 70 calories
• dinner - uncrustable at 320 calories and bean and rice chips, barbecue flavor (beanfields) at 140 calories

thursday

• breakfast - caramel walnut brownie protein bar (luna) 190 calories
• lunch - tuna with relish 70 calories on sesame seed wasa thin crackers at 80 calories for 2
• dinner - frozen ziti with sauce and cheese (lean cuisine ?) at 310 calories

friday

• breakfast - nothing
• lunch - went to applebees and I ate soooooo much we had wonton tacos, brisket quesadilla, honey bbq boneless wings, and mozzarella sticks and I kind of looked at the calories and I'm guessing I probably had around 1800 - 2000 calories

And I didn't eat anything for dinner this day because I had a gallbladder attack around dinner time and I'm pretty sure its because of the ONE MOZZARELLA STICK I ATE. I don't really like them that much but my mom was like, "nooo these are so good try one". By the time it passed (about 15 or 20 minutes) and my stomach was finally settled I was exhausted so I just went to bed.

Saturday

• Breakfast - caramel walnut brownie protein bar (luna) 190 calories
• Lunch - Broccoli cheddar soup at 250 calories and 2 wasa thins with laughing cow swisss cheese at 150 calories together
• Dinner - Tuna with mayo and relish at 100 calories and 2 wasa thins at 70 calories ( we got really busy at work with emergencies so I didn't have time to eat all of my dinner)

Sunday

• Breakfast - 2 mini tortillas 150 calories filled with egg and cheese at 100 calories, totally not worth it I don't know why I keep fucking with eggs because they make my stomach hurt so bad.
• Lunch - DELICIOUS Veggie burger with the worst coleslaw I've ever had and the best baked beans I've ever had. They had a cook out at work in honor of nurses week and the last day all staff were invited to get food so I only have a rough estimate of the calories, between 700 - 800.
• dinner - a solera pina colada fruit puree popsicle - 160 (we got super busy at work and I was still feeling those eggs so I wasn't hungry)

A girls gotta eat though

I AM TRYING THIS AGAIN

I am going to start on a diet so that I can try to get my life in shape, also my body...it needs to be a different shape. I am feeling really motivated mostly because recently I was re-inspired by a girl who I watch on youtube (@simonandmartina or @eatyourkimchi on youtube) who struggles with health issues and is losing weight because to combat side effects of her chronic condition and is taking steps to incorporate better eating into her life style. I lake motivation when it comes to lots of things in life due to depression and I try to act out when I feel inspired because I feel like I can accomplish thing then.

Part of the reason I wanted to find some motivation is because I'm a terrible eater, not only am I picky but my eating habits are ridiculous. Sometimes I'll eat a ton in a day and other days I'll barely eat at all, like today my food was a pureed fruit bar for lunch and another one for dinner washed down with a redbull (I just never felt hungry today). I also eat a TON of carbs, I LOVE CARBS I LOOOOVE THEM, I have pasta at least 3 times a week and when I'm not eating pasta I'm having rice or potatoes those other days so its a carbapalooza for my body and I consume a ton of sugar; sugary drinks and candies are my thing, like I live for that kind of shit I really do. I also enjoy shitty foods like...no nutritional value and high sodium content is the way to my heart and this a true fact.

I need to be healthier, not only because being healthy is good but I want to better control of myself. 
ALSO ya girl needs to lose some weight, not only to be healthy but happy, I'm not going to pretend like it wouldn't make me happier to lose weight and then maintain a trimmer body. I've spent most of my life being overweight or chubby and I was never happy with it, I cannot embrace a body that I am not happy with simple as that.

A LIST

• making meals for work
• trying to fit in at least 30 minutes of physical activity on days I'm not at work
• cutting my carb intake by 30%

I'm starting small (very small) because taking small steps work for me most of the time. 

A few years ago I lost a TON of weight (most of it was unhealthy ways but I'll take about that another time) and I did a huge drastic "cut everything out of my diet except vegetables and water" and that total cut of everything I loved and obsessive calorie counting became my downfall. So this time around I want it to be a diet that helps lead a change in life style (gag) so that I can be healthy and continuing enjoying food because I LOVE FOOD. 

My next post will be more of a list-y type post with some plans and ideas that I have for trying to make this work.